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sorry got distracted painting
so do you paint??
what kind of paintings?
sounds great. could i see one?
got no photos, and left camera at friend’s house last night
what did you do last night at your friend’s?
actually it was the night before… we just went back there after going to bears at the pub
how’s the bear scene in Adelaide?
small but friendly
nice. i guess you know each other perfectly
melbourne is not far away
i have a gay friend living in melbourne
big bear scene there. biggest in australia
when did you realized that you were a bear and that you liked bears?
back when i lived in canberra, and i went to my first Bears Canberra event. about 12 or 15 years ago
and how old are you now?
can’t wait for 34
do you like guys of your age, younger, older..?
i normally go for my age or older
so what came first, painting or songwriting?
i think painting, but not really sure, i have been doing both since i was very young
you started to be interesting at a very young age. how was your childhood?. i mean, what happened in your life before starting going to public toilets as a teenager
not much, i had fun, was very loved
by your parents
yep, and all the family and friends
one of each
lovely. and as a child did you feel atracted for other boys?
how was your first kiss?
i don’t remember lol
was nice, wanted it to go forever
could you describe the guy?
about 40, stocky, shaved head
and you were..?
so nice. sounds like a dennis cooper scene. do you know cooper?
is a gay writer. so when you were with this mature man, did you feel something like a son-dad thing?
nah, i just wanted hot sex lol
may i ask you if you’re top/bottom?
both… depends on the guy, what he wants
good. you like sex, however it comes..
i like sex with certain people… i’m alot more fussy than i used to be
how did you get to public toilets? you heard of it from some friend…?
nah, just read the grafiti
of course. and you visited the toilets every day?
how many time did this phase last?
couple of years
and then what happened…?
got bored of it, found sex with people i loved
how many times have you been in love?
i knew you will say that, so, how and when did schizophrenia started?
dunno, think i always had it, but was diagnosed in 2000
confusing and scary and fun
when you’re psychotic sometimes you feel invincible
i see. and what are the syntoms.. do you hear voices?
it’s more complicated than just hearing voices, it’s more like seeing and hearing secret messages
like you feel a gap between reality and what you hear and see
yeah but at the time you can’t feel the gap, everything is real
in a certain way, we all make our own reality. but at a certain point it can get insane, and turn you violent
i never got violent
just getting naked and screaming and singing out loud
but that’s not a problem. the problem is in boring people’s minds
do you thing that being psychotic lead you to being an artist?
i was always an artist
maybe, as an artist, you have an intimate inner reality, so strong that replaced the “real world”
have your life improved with meds?
am much more connected with the real world, more able to get things done and make commitments
you are in a relationship now, right?
do you live together?
no, he lives in melbourne, i live in adelaide
how did you met?
we travel a lot, i go there or he comes here. it’s only an hour on the plane
i meant how did you first met
in melbourne at a club. his friend saw me. said they should take me home and fuck me. so they did
but you end up with you actual boyfriend
yep. the friend left early
are you a close couple?
we talk every night and text constantly
i mean, do you fuck with others?
we haven’t yet, but only because we don’t want to
You get known by your show “I WAS A TEENAGE DIRTY OLD MAN”.
But before that, what kind of songs did you do?
folky punky acoustic ditties
with autobiographical lyrics?
sometimes, not always
let’s talk about some of your songs..
i love “Straight guys love my man tits”
cheers, i like it, but my boyfriend hates it lol
i have kind of an issue with my tits. i wish i had them smaller. or just harder
i don’t care about mine, as long as my boyfriend likes them
i really enjoy sucking nipples
i think all dudes like lick or being licked his nipples
yep for sure. have you fucked many straight guys?
most of them are curious hehe……
i don’t ask
we all should ask less and do more
Another song that i love is “Snore”. i’ve slept with a lot of guys who snore. and somehow it helps me to get asleep. “I love you but i snore”: what did you tried to express with that?
i always snore, and people always pointed it out to me… i thought it might stop someone falling in love with me
yes, they allways tell me ” i snore” when i ask them to sleep with me. but i like it
it’s a very old song. the oldest song i still do
The tracks in your myspace include some of your latest songs?
no, they’re all a few years old… i have been slack
so no new tracks for the moment?
i have a few new ones i should put up, just haven’t gotten around to doing it…
tell us about them……..
they’re songs i wrote when i first met my boyfriend
so i guess they express what u were feeling
yep. still feeling
could you share a little from that songs’ lyrics?
i love you like i love stout
i love you like i love hash
i love you like i love vodka
and it’s you that i wanna pash
what means “pash”?
ooooooooooooh, beautiful. and since you are in love, do you feel less sarcastic?
what did you find in him that you didn’t find in other guys?
of course. but there was anything special that made you go further with him?
i fell in love
ok, guess it can not be measured… Another song. “I’m not a paedophile but i’ve slept with a few”. so are you alright with kids of 14 or less having consented sex? i mean,of course you are, you did it. but when do you think a kid can start having sex? with adults..
whenever they’re mature enough to want to do it
when i was a boy i wanted so badly to have sex with the …how do you say the gym teacher?
ok. so i wanted the pe teacher to fuck me and kiss me. i was 12. but he did it with my best friend, not with me. knew it couple of years ago. and i got jealous.. How did you started your bear punk band?
with friends, we were sitting around and decided to start a band lol
what is the difference between your solo songs and the Armpit Stench songs?
solo songs are more personal. armpit stench songs are always about bears
what is for you the difference between a bear and any other kind of gay?
For some part of the bear community being a bear means being a “real male”, adopting some of the manners of the classical “straight macho man”. do you identify with that?
yeah, but i wouldn’t be exclusive of other people
i think the whole bear thing started as a way of going back to a certain “natural way” of being gay. like don’t worrying about your aspect, or the clothes you wear, etc.. And now it has become a role play full of uniforms, “woofs”, “grrrrs” and poses
it is still very real here in australia
so you aussie bears just relax and try to be yourselves?
in europe it’s so mad. they’re not hairy men or happy fat men. they are another kind of drags!
bearded macho drags..
sounds like the leather queens over here
all of them. one is my ex boyfriend after all
all together or one at a time?
one at a time
nice. what means “Armpit stench”??
you know what “armpit” is?
underneath your shoulder where the hair grows, where your arm connects to your body
aaaaaaaaam. and stench?
ok hahaha. GOOD name. hey do you like licking armpits? i love it..
we all love it
even when it is not so clean..?
i like sweat
what is the weirdest sexual thing you’ve ever done?
got wrapped completely in glad wrap once
what is glad wrap?
cling wrap? The plastic you use to wrap food
ow. hahaha. and then what happened?
he made a hole and pissed into it
have u ever drink pee or know somebody who does it?
beer piss is great, morning piss is disgusting
and you do it frecuently, or just did it exceptionally?
from time to time
with ur boyfriend?
that is love. tell us about you and drugs……
what do you want to know?
well, what do you do besides mushrooms?
pot, speed, e
and when did u started?
do you consider yourself as an addict?
only to cigarettes, everything else i can take or leave
what is your favorite tv series?
one of us (antonio) is a really huge fan of Torchwood
i love it
i never seen it lol
you should, it’s good
pick a torchwood character for a shag
and for a serious relationship?
haha. well, there’s a question that none of our guests have answered yet: how long is ur cock?
depend where you measure from
well, just an average… inches?
is it thick?
ok. i think we’re done